Genesis

Again, I have completed the bible from cover to cover. Each time I complete it, I feel like I have finished a whole huge achievement and want to share my success with others around me. What a mile stone I went on. Quite hard it has been though, finding people who would share my joy. Probably God is teaching me to find contentment in his lone, sole applause.
Anyway, since one has completed reading the bible from cover to cover, what does one do next? re-read it again from cover to cover. All the way back to genesis.
This time, as I re-embark on a new journey to finish the bible from cover to cover, I am looking at the bible differently again. Probably because I am more honest to myself, as well as more knowing and understanding towards myself, I realise I tend to treat genesis not a book as it should be.
When you read the bible, can you get the emotions that runs through it as well? Can you get the feelings that God felt when you go  through each event and moment in history in the eyes of God?
I used to avoid reading genesis for many reasons. 1 because the idea that there is nothing I can learn from it was greatly planted in my head. That everything there is to be learned is already thought in the rest of the books. The other reason is because genesis always felt like a book of tragedy. Especially upon reaching the story of Noah, it feels like you can see the sorrow that went through God. Nothing beats the pain of destroying something you love.
At the same time, while the people of God turns their face against his, God in love does not turn away, but creates routes for them. Seeing how God puts up with them, while knowing that they are intentionally running away and angering him is very saddening. Yet in his mercy, he creates ways and kindness for the purpose of sustaining them and hopefully, guide them back.
Going through Genesis again allows me to feel the pain that God feels regarding creating something that he loves so bad that he wants to bring it/he,she to a whole new place and purpose of life each time, which each moment being better than the previous, then having to change its destiny to being destroyed. It seems so not logical that many people stop believing because they cannot accept the premise that Someone with so much love can also destroy. People forget the inevitability of consequence. In the world of justice and righteousness that we seek, we are actually asking God to kill us.
I pray that at the end of every reading of Genesis, we grow more compassionate and merciful to the people around us.