17/9/2025

 Bible reading. Isaiah 36 - 43

Reflection:

I am so sleepy today, my brain is barely working. Too tired, too lack of sleep. Should have probably ask wife to let me sleep in car, or probably shouldn't have joined to come hospital. But for some reason, I felt like coming today was a very necessary step. Nevertheless, I am here today. Wife says she wants kids, but I am not sure if we can have 1, I am scared there is now something wrong with me. Career wise, I am worried if I will ever amount to something, but I know this is not the right thinking. I need to change out of this. Also, I can see God's providence in my work, that things are progressing well on their own.

Isaiah 36 - 37

Who is the king of Assyria in my life now, what is coming at me, that is pretending to be on level with God, that is shouting like that uncircumcised giant? This passage reminds me that powerful beings, people in authority will always come and flex their positions, their strength, wealth and talents. They will come demanding lordship and reverence, asking for people to trust in them, as they have attained a position of power. In my current stage of life, what represents this king of Assyria? My work, my income, my clients, my shareholders, big players of the industry, other christians who thinks they know God's calling over me, friends, my in-laws. There's so many people that could be an Assyrian king, but what God you call me to do is not to be afraid of them, to stare them in the face and hold my ground saying "you move, not me" I don't have this courage in full yet, But I know God is kind to help prepare me for the day that I will have that courage.

Isaiah 43

This is an extremely powerful chapter where God himself declares that he loves me, and all the things he does, has done and will do because of this great love.