Worship must begin meek and humbled. Or you can never enjoy it.
Here I am.
humbled by your majesty
covered by your grace so free
here I am
knowing i am a sinful man
covered by the blood of the lamb
now I found
the greatest love of all
is mine
since you lay down your life
the greatest sacrifice
majesty
your grace has found me just as I am
empty handed but alive in your hands
Here I am
humbled the love that you gave
forgiven so that I can forgive
so here I stand
knowing that I am your desire
sactified by glory and fire.
reference:
Majesty (here I am) Hillsong and Delirious? 2003
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Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Grace
Romans 5: 20-21
"Moreover the law entered that the offense might abound. But where sin abounded, grace abounded much more, so that as sin reigned in death, even so grace might reign through righteousness to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
Have you ever committed a sin that even you yourself could not pardon let alone any of your peers who then recognises you? The guilt that stays even after having received forgiveness is so heavy at times especially when memories of our terrible indulgence returns. I have had that before. It didn't just affected my walk with God and association with other Christians, it affected me in every way. My deepest darkest desire is to learn a spell that can help me erase my own memory. Of what memory would I like to vanquish? A lot.
I realised the period of time when one gets hit hardest by the painful guilt ridden memories are during the twilight hours. the more tired the body is, the rest resistance there is available to mentally comfort oneself even while knowing that the price has been paid. The more sleepless anyone gets, the more the "ideas" gets harmful. If anyone has insomnia, this would be the worse opponent to face on a sleepless night. It ranks up there with spiritual battle against demonic attacks.
This is a testimony /dream of Joshua Harris which he added to his famous book I kiss dating goodbye. I summarised it to bring out only the points I want touched on. Picture yourself as Joshua in this story would be best
Joshua walked into a room. The room as he begin to analise the room is a room that keeps his life records to the smallest details. One of the books he saw was his records of all the crushes he had ever had in his entire life. He was horrified to see how long the list stretched. It was a book! At the same time, he was amazed at the details that was put into the construction of this place. Nothing was left out. It was scary that nothing was left hidden and at the same time amazing that nothing was not recorded. As he walked around looking at the many books kept, he saw another book, times he gotten angry with his parents. He opened it and read it. Instantly memories of all the events flushes back into his mind. Everything was so clear. so detail. And at the end of each account was signed his name with his signature. Proof that it was he who had completed the conduct. The book was not 1 that was light either. Instantly. Like the snap of his fingers. The biggest horror that could hit his mind came. Lustful sin. Where is that book. He browsed around. And found the thickest book in the whole room. It was so old and heavy. Everything was there. No stone not moved. And at the end of each event was his signature. Instantly fear griped him. No one. NO ONE must ever see this room. No one can ever know of this place. Everything about this room must be destroyed. No one can know what kind of life he had led. Like and instant, an animalistic nature came over him and he started wrecking everything about him. destroying all the records at his best. Smashing up the whole room. As he turned around to lock the room, he realised there was no lock to the room. Worse. As he turned around, he realised the room had reverted to what it originally was. Depiction of you cannot change your past. Broken and lost, he dropped to the floor. Feeling as though his life has left him, he felt someone was about to enter the room. Worse moment would be for him to witness someone entering the room. Defeated, he turned around to see who is it. Of all the person. The one he wished to not appear. Jesus. Not him of all people. He sat silent as he watch Jesus walked over to the books. Picked each one of them and read them. Especially accounts of all his darkest sins. Jesus picked those books and read through them. Josh was already in tears. When Jesus finished reading them all, he walked over to Josh, hugged him and cried with him. After that, Jesus went over to all the books. AND SIGNED ALL OF THEM. All that was left for Joshua to do was to continue from the blank pages.
Everytime I read this story. Even as I am typing it now, tears always fill my eyes. Especially the part where Jesus walked up to Josh and hugged him. We want forgiveness for sin but we do not dare to ask for it. For the worse sins we have committed, it is so terrible that even we ourselves cannot forgive ourselves. But at the same time, we do not want to lose whatever companionship that has been given to us. Especially Love relationships. As a result, we try to destroy that room only to realise that the past can never be destroyed. In despair we fall to our knees lost and waiting for death. The benefit of this story is, Jesus is real and he did read everyone of our accounts. Worse than read. He watched us commit them. But he still wants to hug us share our sorrow and acknowledge our will for repentance. The only thing standing between you and him is your ego. I dropped mine. Will you drop yours?
Reference
New Spirit Filled Life Bible. (NKJV) Thomas Nelson, Inc.2002
I kiss dating goodbye. Joshua Harris, Multnomah Publishers, Inc 1997
"Moreover the law entered that the offense might abound. But where sin abounded, grace abounded much more, so that as sin reigned in death, even so grace might reign through righteousness to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
Have you ever committed a sin that even you yourself could not pardon let alone any of your peers who then recognises you? The guilt that stays even after having received forgiveness is so heavy at times especially when memories of our terrible indulgence returns. I have had that before. It didn't just affected my walk with God and association with other Christians, it affected me in every way. My deepest darkest desire is to learn a spell that can help me erase my own memory. Of what memory would I like to vanquish? A lot.
I realised the period of time when one gets hit hardest by the painful guilt ridden memories are during the twilight hours. the more tired the body is, the rest resistance there is available to mentally comfort oneself even while knowing that the price has been paid. The more sleepless anyone gets, the more the "ideas" gets harmful. If anyone has insomnia, this would be the worse opponent to face on a sleepless night. It ranks up there with spiritual battle against demonic attacks.
This is a testimony /dream of Joshua Harris which he added to his famous book I kiss dating goodbye. I summarised it to bring out only the points I want touched on. Picture yourself as Joshua in this story would be best
Joshua walked into a room. The room as he begin to analise the room is a room that keeps his life records to the smallest details. One of the books he saw was his records of all the crushes he had ever had in his entire life. He was horrified to see how long the list stretched. It was a book! At the same time, he was amazed at the details that was put into the construction of this place. Nothing was left out. It was scary that nothing was left hidden and at the same time amazing that nothing was not recorded. As he walked around looking at the many books kept, he saw another book, times he gotten angry with his parents. He opened it and read it. Instantly memories of all the events flushes back into his mind. Everything was so clear. so detail. And at the end of each account was signed his name with his signature. Proof that it was he who had completed the conduct. The book was not 1 that was light either. Instantly. Like the snap of his fingers. The biggest horror that could hit his mind came. Lustful sin. Where is that book. He browsed around. And found the thickest book in the whole room. It was so old and heavy. Everything was there. No stone not moved. And at the end of each event was his signature. Instantly fear griped him. No one. NO ONE must ever see this room. No one can ever know of this place. Everything about this room must be destroyed. No one can know what kind of life he had led. Like and instant, an animalistic nature came over him and he started wrecking everything about him. destroying all the records at his best. Smashing up the whole room. As he turned around to lock the room, he realised there was no lock to the room. Worse. As he turned around, he realised the room had reverted to what it originally was. Depiction of you cannot change your past. Broken and lost, he dropped to the floor. Feeling as though his life has left him, he felt someone was about to enter the room. Worse moment would be for him to witness someone entering the room. Defeated, he turned around to see who is it. Of all the person. The one he wished to not appear. Jesus. Not him of all people. He sat silent as he watch Jesus walked over to the books. Picked each one of them and read them. Especially accounts of all his darkest sins. Jesus picked those books and read through them. Josh was already in tears. When Jesus finished reading them all, he walked over to Josh, hugged him and cried with him. After that, Jesus went over to all the books. AND SIGNED ALL OF THEM. All that was left for Joshua to do was to continue from the blank pages.
Everytime I read this story. Even as I am typing it now, tears always fill my eyes. Especially the part where Jesus walked up to Josh and hugged him. We want forgiveness for sin but we do not dare to ask for it. For the worse sins we have committed, it is so terrible that even we ourselves cannot forgive ourselves. But at the same time, we do not want to lose whatever companionship that has been given to us. Especially Love relationships. As a result, we try to destroy that room only to realise that the past can never be destroyed. In despair we fall to our knees lost and waiting for death. The benefit of this story is, Jesus is real and he did read everyone of our accounts. Worse than read. He watched us commit them. But he still wants to hug us share our sorrow and acknowledge our will for repentance. The only thing standing between you and him is your ego. I dropped mine. Will you drop yours?
Reference
New Spirit Filled Life Bible. (NKJV) Thomas Nelson, Inc.2002
I kiss dating goodbye. Joshua Harris, Multnomah Publishers, Inc 1997
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Game of thrones (book review)
Book review! Book review! For those of you readers wondering which book you should get, which book you should not get, look no further! I will attempt to provide an insight without spoiling the content of the story for you. I will deal with areas like how well the story was handled. The writing techniques, creativity, morality (so you know whether its R rated), and most of all, whether it is worth your time and money. I will even try to paint a picture as to how you might be enjoying the book and probably suggest a suitable environment for the enjoyment of the book. Finally, as always. I will rate the book as a suggestion whether it is worth your while reading it. Sadly, those of you who love horror stories, I will disappoint. I don't do horror here. They creep me out.
A Game of Thrones. ( first book of the popular series by George R.R. Martin)
Like many other tv- book series, they are not very far apart. I don't think it is any spoilers after all, it is known that the show is adapted from the book. There are however many moments parts and clarity to the plot that you would only understand after reading the book. They are one of those moments that can be compared to when you read the Harry Potter book and watch the movie. Where before watching it, you will see a different picture, and after watching it you would go : " Oh, I see. Thats why he made that statement, or oh, thats why they are no longer friends."
The book has a very compelling and provocative story line. One I dare say impresses me as much as C.S. Lewis. It is a good blend of Strong active fighting, lewd romance, gore, politics between peers and friends. Brings real suspense to the heart as you read it. As I reached the middle of the book, I find the excitement so intense that sleeping was quite out of hand. I would highly recommend that no one treats this book as a bed time story. It is way to lively to put anyone to sleep. If anything, you be more actively awake. What more when the language is not too difficult either. I recommend this as a book to read during times of boredom, when one can't find anything else to do and in need of excitement. A good travel companion this book will make. Especially in Trains and Planes. It keeps your mind vividly on it helping you forget the setting of where you are at. I once read it in the library, I nearly jumped myself while musing over the plots. Will not recommend it when you desire quiet, or are in quiet places. I also would not recommend this book during busy times. You need specially allocated time to explore the fantasy in this book. Its one of those where you can't stop halfway and continue it a week later.
Contents. This book is only for mature people. The Author tried his best to give the clearest painting of the medieval world at its ugliest and most realistic. It has lots of sex in it. A lot. I can tell you, every chapter has at least 2 instances of coitus. Intense ones too with relationships that are too taboo for the young minds. It also has loads of Gore which expected of medieval fighting I guess. (imagine M rated anime level gore) It does not hide the political mind games that we play among colleagues if we are serious about power rising or power hugging (the name afterall says it :game of thrones). It will tweak your your brain fairly with its mix blend of cold war and open war approach. If you do not like those stories of " i draw my gun to intimidate and not kill", you shall have to reconsider carefully this book. It has a fair share of fights in it. But a majority is not focus on chopping people up. Its focus on how anyone at any position is able to join the game of power struggle. Very shrewdly written. Will make you feel cunningly smart after finishing the book. ( i hope the picture is now painted)
The author is very creative. Did a fair amount of research and reading too. Nothing super factual as it focuses in a fantasy world. But the reaction of people, the emotional trauma and anger is too realistic to say that the author had not done research in human behavior and politics. ( though not enough to say he got a degree in that area.) Most books has only 1 focal point character whose personality is developed. LOTR has about 7 whom you know a fair amount of. This book as about that same amount too. All simultaneously developed. And not neglected.
Problem. This is one of the books that wears you out as you read it because of the devotion you must provide it. Not one where you can stop halfway. I find that if I stop reading it halfway, I have to start from the beginning again. Not that I cannot remember the plot, but I lost sight of the color the author as painted.
Price. I got mine for about 7 pounds. I forgot the price in Malaysia. But I can assume it would not be any cheaper than UK. depending on the price the book is. any higher than 9 pounds (45 ringgit) is not worth your while. In fact. be skeptical if it is at 45 ringgit. As yourself how much are you willing to pay for a book that you would truely enjoy during your time traveling in a bus than before you sleep. The question you need to ask is not how good the story is. But the time devotion you must give to enjoy this book to get your moneys worth.. My opinion, you need 2 weeks of continuous reading of 1 hour a day of the book to get your moneys worth. Its not one book you can skip for even 1 day. You will lose the thrill installed in it. Its like leaving a hot chocolate in the kitchen till the next day. But for the skill and creativity put in by the author for his area of story type, I would even pay 12 pounds for the book have I have the time to read them.
Considering all including price of the book, I give this book. 8/10
references:
A Game of Thrones, George R.R. Martin, Harper Collins 2011
A Clash of Kings, George R.R. Martin, Harper Collins 2011
A Game of Thrones. ( first book of the popular series by George R.R. Martin)
Like many other tv- book series, they are not very far apart. I don't think it is any spoilers after all, it is known that the show is adapted from the book. There are however many moments parts and clarity to the plot that you would only understand after reading the book. They are one of those moments that can be compared to when you read the Harry Potter book and watch the movie. Where before watching it, you will see a different picture, and after watching it you would go : " Oh, I see. Thats why he made that statement, or oh, thats why they are no longer friends."
The book has a very compelling and provocative story line. One I dare say impresses me as much as C.S. Lewis. It is a good blend of Strong active fighting, lewd romance, gore, politics between peers and friends. Brings real suspense to the heart as you read it. As I reached the middle of the book, I find the excitement so intense that sleeping was quite out of hand. I would highly recommend that no one treats this book as a bed time story. It is way to lively to put anyone to sleep. If anything, you be more actively awake. What more when the language is not too difficult either. I recommend this as a book to read during times of boredom, when one can't find anything else to do and in need of excitement. A good travel companion this book will make. Especially in Trains and Planes. It keeps your mind vividly on it helping you forget the setting of where you are at. I once read it in the library, I nearly jumped myself while musing over the plots. Will not recommend it when you desire quiet, or are in quiet places. I also would not recommend this book during busy times. You need specially allocated time to explore the fantasy in this book. Its one of those where you can't stop halfway and continue it a week later.
Contents. This book is only for mature people. The Author tried his best to give the clearest painting of the medieval world at its ugliest and most realistic. It has lots of sex in it. A lot. I can tell you, every chapter has at least 2 instances of coitus. Intense ones too with relationships that are too taboo for the young minds. It also has loads of Gore which expected of medieval fighting I guess. (imagine M rated anime level gore) It does not hide the political mind games that we play among colleagues if we are serious about power rising or power hugging (the name afterall says it :game of thrones). It will tweak your your brain fairly with its mix blend of cold war and open war approach. If you do not like those stories of " i draw my gun to intimidate and not kill", you shall have to reconsider carefully this book. It has a fair share of fights in it. But a majority is not focus on chopping people up. Its focus on how anyone at any position is able to join the game of power struggle. Very shrewdly written. Will make you feel cunningly smart after finishing the book. ( i hope the picture is now painted)
The author is very creative. Did a fair amount of research and reading too. Nothing super factual as it focuses in a fantasy world. But the reaction of people, the emotional trauma and anger is too realistic to say that the author had not done research in human behavior and politics. ( though not enough to say he got a degree in that area.) Most books has only 1 focal point character whose personality is developed. LOTR has about 7 whom you know a fair amount of. This book as about that same amount too. All simultaneously developed. And not neglected.
Problem. This is one of the books that wears you out as you read it because of the devotion you must provide it. Not one where you can stop halfway. I find that if I stop reading it halfway, I have to start from the beginning again. Not that I cannot remember the plot, but I lost sight of the color the author as painted.
Price. I got mine for about 7 pounds. I forgot the price in Malaysia. But I can assume it would not be any cheaper than UK. depending on the price the book is. any higher than 9 pounds (45 ringgit) is not worth your while. In fact. be skeptical if it is at 45 ringgit. As yourself how much are you willing to pay for a book that you would truely enjoy during your time traveling in a bus than before you sleep. The question you need to ask is not how good the story is. But the time devotion you must give to enjoy this book to get your moneys worth.. My opinion, you need 2 weeks of continuous reading of 1 hour a day of the book to get your moneys worth. Its not one book you can skip for even 1 day. You will lose the thrill installed in it. Its like leaving a hot chocolate in the kitchen till the next day. But for the skill and creativity put in by the author for his area of story type, I would even pay 12 pounds for the book have I have the time to read them.
Considering all including price of the book, I give this book. 8/10
references:
A Game of Thrones, George R.R. Martin, Harper Collins 2011
A Clash of Kings, George R.R. Martin, Harper Collins 2011
Friday, May 24, 2013
reading the most painful details
Today I started my quiet time on the materials of Romans. Boy is it some painful book to read. Constantly reminding me of the different sins that I have. Even some that I never knew of but are more serious than that which I used to do and probably am still doing.
Today I went through the chapter 1 and 2. Boy is this hard to write it without sounding judgmental. But I really have no intention to judge anyone, least of all the readers of this for I myself have been judged according to the scale of God and found terribly lacking in every area. If anything, God had to put the weight of his son on my side of the scale to balance against the other side. It is nicely encouraging that in the opening of the chapter 1, Paul says in verse 16 and verse 17 : for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also the Greek. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith ; as it is written, the just shall live by faith. This apparently might be all the comfort you will find, and as I read on the 2 chapters, I found myself having to constantly remind myself, my salvation is not by works but by grace and mercy. I do not judge you. Only God does. If this post does makes you feel bad in anyway, please do not consider me being the one rebuking you, for do note that I do not know who is reading this. I merely write this as a reflection to my daily quiet time. In fact, it is pretty hard to write it all out because it personally deals with me. If you do feel that tingling poking on you when you read this post coming with the logging to shrug this post off, please don't. Continue to read it. For you do not know if God meant for you to read it. Though loving it, I do not intend to force anyone nor invite anyone to share my perspectives. I invite you to allow God to use my writings to speak to you. So please read it to the end. If even the slightest bit of it brings you closer to God, then the mission I have set out for has been completed.
Sin
Right after verse 17 straight came verse 18 where the bashing truly starts. God reviews himself to all. His invisible attributes are seen by all. and understood by all. Even his eternal power and Godhead so there being no excuse. Before you deny that, ask yourself. have you ever considered human race to be the most superior thing on this plain of existence. Not using the word earth here because that would limit us all to the perceptions of the physical. I am talking both physical and spiritual. Example, Ghost as many people acknowledge are superior beings to humans. No one has ever spoken themselves as any equal to spirits and their kind. Everyone has some kind of reverence, whether it is fear or something else for them. Thus the over loading of horror/ spiritual/ fantasy movies and shows. But this is not for establishment of their existence The point is whether people believe it or not, they do have some level of "know" that a superior being exist.
the passage continues by saying, the core root of all the immoralities comes from the dis-acknowledgement of God being the author and finisher of life. With people wanting to take things into their own hands, God gave them over to their carnal desires and and dishonoring of their own bodies. He gave them over to a totally debased mind.
After reading that passage, I start to reflect back upon my life. I have gave in to my carnal desires before. And I have no lack of them. Neither do I lack in ideas to dishonor myself. If anything. I might be able to invent new ones. It scares me to think that I am so distant from God. The picture that was painted in my mind was not that because I sin, thus I face the wrath of God. But rather, by rejecting God, we are subjected to his wrath which is the distancing of his presence which results in us having not the power to defend ourselves against our most carnal and horrid nature. It is like wearing a shirt made out of live ants and scorpions and as they bite and sting, we shake them of hard only to have them retaliate harder. Imagine all the insects crawling around your body. That is how we look in sin. Disgusting. But if you ask me why the exasperation, I would say when we sin, our body comes close to being defiled by insects. And many films comes to mind where a corrupt soul gets consumed inside out by bugs. Ie: the mummy, fire ant, Constantine possessed. Disgusting. Horrifying. But what comes closer to reality will be the movie supernatural. The more we sin. Take note how deprive we look each time we plunge further. Also, take note of what we come to associate ourselves as we sin even further. Do you see a trend? And does not that trend horrifies you even to one bit? The soul and spirit of one is the most important part of ones being. Imagine what happens when you lose or had your soul and spirit replaced by something else. It be all easier that when your soul and spirit dies, it dies. But in truth it doesn't. Imagine each time you go to sleep, you see sadako (ghost from the ring) coming up to eat you, devour you. slow, gnashing gnawing. Thats how you die spiritually. Being eaten. Only worse. you can't "die" in the spirit realm. The equivalent of dying in the spirit realm is torture. Endless. gruesome inward eating in. Imagine seeing a horrifying ghost. Now imagine that ghost evolving to be stronger and stronger each time you enter the night. That is. my friend. Sin. We are subjected to it as far as we reject God.
Chapter 2. This time, it starts by saying we are inexcusable. How we know what is right and wrong? Our ability to judge someone else. Just by merely commenting on how badly someone has done something, we are indirectly saying we could have done it better. Only worse than alcohol talk, that is our pride talking. Rashly. Irrational. The bible continues to say. As we judge, we elevate ourselves to a state of mind thinking we are better of. But are we truly excused? No. God then unmercifully bears down on us going further to say. By your own measuring rod will I judge you. And let me ask you. In your own standards. How far can you honestly go. It was a painful reminder of how truly dependent are we. Worse. How good we are at denying we are dependent to the extend we believe we are independent.
If you do feel compelled about what I have written, it is not me who has compelled you. It is God. for a normal person would not feel remorse at the end of these. It takes conviction from God and a strong person to accept his falls. But it takes a greater step to go further and desire change. I have no prayer for you for I know you already has been spoken to by God. In the words of A.W. Tozer, Submit your life to Christ. Relieve your life. Go out there and live it in the image of Christ.
reference:
New Spirit Filled Life Bible. (NKJV) Thomas Nelson, Inc.2002
The Best Of AW Tozer, A.W. Tozer, Grand Rapids, Mich: Baker Book House, 1978)
Today I went through the chapter 1 and 2. Boy is this hard to write it without sounding judgmental. But I really have no intention to judge anyone, least of all the readers of this for I myself have been judged according to the scale of God and found terribly lacking in every area. If anything, God had to put the weight of his son on my side of the scale to balance against the other side. It is nicely encouraging that in the opening of the chapter 1, Paul says in verse 16 and verse 17 : for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also the Greek. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith ; as it is written, the just shall live by faith. This apparently might be all the comfort you will find, and as I read on the 2 chapters, I found myself having to constantly remind myself, my salvation is not by works but by grace and mercy. I do not judge you. Only God does. If this post does makes you feel bad in anyway, please do not consider me being the one rebuking you, for do note that I do not know who is reading this. I merely write this as a reflection to my daily quiet time. In fact, it is pretty hard to write it all out because it personally deals with me. If you do feel that tingling poking on you when you read this post coming with the logging to shrug this post off, please don't. Continue to read it. For you do not know if God meant for you to read it. Though loving it, I do not intend to force anyone nor invite anyone to share my perspectives. I invite you to allow God to use my writings to speak to you. So please read it to the end. If even the slightest bit of it brings you closer to God, then the mission I have set out for has been completed.
Sin
Right after verse 17 straight came verse 18 where the bashing truly starts. God reviews himself to all. His invisible attributes are seen by all. and understood by all. Even his eternal power and Godhead so there being no excuse. Before you deny that, ask yourself. have you ever considered human race to be the most superior thing on this plain of existence. Not using the word earth here because that would limit us all to the perceptions of the physical. I am talking both physical and spiritual. Example, Ghost as many people acknowledge are superior beings to humans. No one has ever spoken themselves as any equal to spirits and their kind. Everyone has some kind of reverence, whether it is fear or something else for them. Thus the over loading of horror/ spiritual/ fantasy movies and shows. But this is not for establishment of their existence The point is whether people believe it or not, they do have some level of "know" that a superior being exist.
the passage continues by saying, the core root of all the immoralities comes from the dis-acknowledgement of God being the author and finisher of life. With people wanting to take things into their own hands, God gave them over to their carnal desires and and dishonoring of their own bodies. He gave them over to a totally debased mind.
After reading that passage, I start to reflect back upon my life. I have gave in to my carnal desires before. And I have no lack of them. Neither do I lack in ideas to dishonor myself. If anything. I might be able to invent new ones. It scares me to think that I am so distant from God. The picture that was painted in my mind was not that because I sin, thus I face the wrath of God. But rather, by rejecting God, we are subjected to his wrath which is the distancing of his presence which results in us having not the power to defend ourselves against our most carnal and horrid nature. It is like wearing a shirt made out of live ants and scorpions and as they bite and sting, we shake them of hard only to have them retaliate harder. Imagine all the insects crawling around your body. That is how we look in sin. Disgusting. But if you ask me why the exasperation, I would say when we sin, our body comes close to being defiled by insects. And many films comes to mind where a corrupt soul gets consumed inside out by bugs. Ie: the mummy, fire ant, Constantine possessed. Disgusting. Horrifying. But what comes closer to reality will be the movie supernatural. The more we sin. Take note how deprive we look each time we plunge further. Also, take note of what we come to associate ourselves as we sin even further. Do you see a trend? And does not that trend horrifies you even to one bit? The soul and spirit of one is the most important part of ones being. Imagine what happens when you lose or had your soul and spirit replaced by something else. It be all easier that when your soul and spirit dies, it dies. But in truth it doesn't. Imagine each time you go to sleep, you see sadako (ghost from the ring) coming up to eat you, devour you. slow, gnashing gnawing. Thats how you die spiritually. Being eaten. Only worse. you can't "die" in the spirit realm. The equivalent of dying in the spirit realm is torture. Endless. gruesome inward eating in. Imagine seeing a horrifying ghost. Now imagine that ghost evolving to be stronger and stronger each time you enter the night. That is. my friend. Sin. We are subjected to it as far as we reject God.
Chapter 2. This time, it starts by saying we are inexcusable. How we know what is right and wrong? Our ability to judge someone else. Just by merely commenting on how badly someone has done something, we are indirectly saying we could have done it better. Only worse than alcohol talk, that is our pride talking. Rashly. Irrational. The bible continues to say. As we judge, we elevate ourselves to a state of mind thinking we are better of. But are we truly excused? No. God then unmercifully bears down on us going further to say. By your own measuring rod will I judge you. And let me ask you. In your own standards. How far can you honestly go. It was a painful reminder of how truly dependent are we. Worse. How good we are at denying we are dependent to the extend we believe we are independent.
If you do feel compelled about what I have written, it is not me who has compelled you. It is God. for a normal person would not feel remorse at the end of these. It takes conviction from God and a strong person to accept his falls. But it takes a greater step to go further and desire change. I have no prayer for you for I know you already has been spoken to by God. In the words of A.W. Tozer, Submit your life to Christ. Relieve your life. Go out there and live it in the image of Christ.
reference:
New Spirit Filled Life Bible. (NKJV) Thomas Nelson, Inc.2002
The Best Of AW Tozer, A.W. Tozer, Grand Rapids, Mich: Baker Book House, 1978)
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