Morning Devotion 12th June

Conscience. I always wondered what was the relationship that a conscience had with the holy spirit.  In the same way I trust the holy spirit, I trust my conscience. In fact, it be most accurate to say that the holy spirit is my conscience.
Was there ever a time you would wonder if your guts is telling you something that you should not follow? I too wondered about people who have yet to receive the holy spirit. What kind of conscience do they have. To what level must one be corrupt to lose the holy spirit? Then I look, and also realised that without the holy spirit, one's monster gets truly unleashed.
"We are all monsters." This were the words of my mentor before I left for my degree. I knew the accuracy of that statement. At least when I look at myself, I see its reality. I am a monster. what good others see is just a suppression of who I truly am on the inside. Volatile, Rash, Arrogant, Lustful. At times I am like a super villain that people see on TV. It was one of the moments when your mind agrees and 100 thoughts comes flying into your head at the a split second making an agreeing stand to the statement made. The next thing any guy would ask for would be a solution. What can solve my problem. "Forgive yourself. As how God forgive you. Learn to love yourself." In all sense, I barely even could bring myself to agree, but that day, somehow it made a lot of sense. And I decided to hunt and understand what it really meant. Now such words no longer seem foreign to me, I understand what it really means.
What happened at the moment of receiving the solution was my own conscience opened up, and I could for an instance understand the mysteries of heaven. Was it hard? In truth, all you need to do is surrender and submit, then the powers of heaven is unlocked for you.
I always wondered why women filled the church. Where did the Godly man go? Do you know why man was created first and women 2nd? It has nothing to do with rights. The more I dig deep into genesis to study the original purpose of man, the more the beautiful plan of God really captivates me. Man first came into the world and God taught man his law (this is a simplified way of looking at it. there is way more to discuss about in this area) God then fashioned woman according to the body of man to give him the perfect companion. Gods idea. Not mine.  Note that it was MAN'S DUTY to teach the women God's law. God didn't teach her his law. THE MAN DID.
There is no inferiority between man and women. Once we start separating purpose from rights and status, we become more fulfilled. Who there can I ask would tell me why a person doing a peculiar job is inferior to another? the only difference that separates you from him is talent and time. In the bible, the parable of the talents. 3 man. different talents given. Note. God didn't specify who was ranked higher before giving them each talents. God just gave them and implied to them that he expects investments. The trouble with being the person with only 1 talent is comparison. How much can one lost from his purpose of comparison. I also noted that when one is comparing himself with another, signals does not fly up as warning, there might be no signals for all we know.