night devotion

A bit of a change of pace. Since lately I have trouble waking up. Can't miss devotion no? So todays done at night.
Tell me about upset, anger, frustration, despair... All those feelings that are too familiar when dealing with people. Especially on close proximity level. Hurt, broken trust, surely you all know how it feels to be taken advantage of, especially when that person knows how you "tick", thus using that knowledge against your advantage.
What happens after this is a terrible struggle to learn to trust again, love again, and fight anger and hate. I too have my fair share of learning to love other people. Especially those who have wronged me gravely. With hate as the simple little game that propels the urge for vengeance and unforgiveness. I have actually over the past years handled this area really badly. I look at myself, and I realised that there are people whom I do not wish to see being found in a church, thus wishing eternal damnation over them. Not to mention the temptation to want to see them fail, to pray over that their life be an eternal failure. There are those whom I dread knowing.
The Lord however hates this mindset of anger. To him all man are equal in creation. The more I read through Corinthians, the more i see the potential of how sinful a human can be. But at the same time, I also see how graceful God can be. Abundant with his grace and mercy. Probably one day, such anger will no longer affect me and I shall also be able to show the same kindness and mercy to others.