morning devotion

I often forgot how to preach to non-believers. These few days I have come into contact with more and more of them around, and I always find myself dreading every moment of it. I don't know what position to stand. I have to make the proposition of  where God and Christ stands regarding sin clear to them, but at the same time grace. Then at the same time, it is love rather, then any other things that is most important to be shown. And most of the time, I am so caught up in inducing my doctrines and fundamentalism rather than trying to love the other person. Woe is me.
Today as I read the bible again during my quiet time, God reminded me of another thing that I often do. Move around being stuck in the old testament while everyone is moving around in the new. Which is correct? Neither. God wants to by the new, bring us back to genesis. Different from returning to the old testament. Returning to genesis after salvation is returning to the core and fundamental purpose of men. While returning to the old testament is following the law which brings condemnation. So often do I find myself not just doing to others, but because I also do to myself! Living in the law too often, thus condemning everything, everyone for wrongs that is already forgiven. Do I then also condemn myself? Yes.
The more I know Christ, the more I realised how much I lack the art of showing mercy. The more I want to learn how to be compassionate, kind and merciful. To the tax collectors, he was most loving and kind that they changed their ways, what kind of mindset must I change and have to learn to have mercy on those I scorn and curse. What mindset my I charge to stop me from scorning and cursing people. How do i stop thinking that by knowing scriptures and God, I am holier than others. One needs Christ more than ever.
The most difficult part of scripture that I read today is 2 corinthians 3: 14-16. How often do I wish that some of my closes friends comes to saving knowledge. Even more so do I wish that they do so today. But unless they take the step of faith first, they will know nothing. God, all is in your hands.