my faith game

Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me. -- Kristian Stanfill

Up to today, the words that I read years ago, "faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains." has never left me. I am still astonished by what God says he is capable and the comfort there is in knowing that he is capable, and even more comfortable to know that he is willing.
once again, my mind is burdened by what faith truly is. What is its mechanism. There is always so much there is to it, and yet there is so little there is to it.
Yesterday I came across 2 phases that made my mind go wild. 
1.) Borrowed faith
We do know our faith is already so little. No one in this world has ever seen a mountain move, thus that means everyone on earth only have faith smaller than a mustard seed? I am reminded of the notion of "child like faith" which sounds similar to blind faith. In fact, sometimes, if not all the time, God tends to call us to believe in things we have completely no understanding or revelation in at all, and only in believing and doing, then waiting upon the end result, does it gets clearer and clearer. The faith is in God, but that still does feels like blind following at the start. Worse than blind following. The road is not even visible many at times. The only thing that is seen in the front is that extended hand that is holding yours.
when such circumstances arises, I wish I can borrow faith from somewhere and add it to my own. Better. I wish I can be given faith by an extra measure and bulk to believe because my heart says go in capitals, but my mind says stay.. Some extra faith from somewhere else will be good in helping me fight my doubts.

2.) the losing battle that death is fighting
this is even more of a harder battle for me. Everywhere I go, death seems to scream out look at the people. I have won. no one can escape me.  Faith then turns round in a louder voice and screams I have not lost! Why are you losing hope!
Though learning, knowing, studied, and taught God never loses, I wish most of the time that things can be a lot easier. A lot simpler. Less thinking if you will. More results. Better still if instantly. Hard ball that faith drives around is how slow it likes to take things that sometimes you wonder if it might be too late. The only thing is faith is never too late where it is needed. Yesterday I was reminded that Jesus can raise people from the dead signifying complete dominance over even death which we believe to be unavoidable. Indirectly, it also goes against popular believes held by many christians that when a person dies, its the end. Judgement is now decided. However, now with Jesus in the picture even the death principle can be neglected since when God feels like it, he can raise the person back to life and thus what I call the principle of "borrowed grace" 
there are times where circumstances are actually ordained by God to not succeed and fail. But that is not today's lesson. Today, I learn that not even the notion of fail/ succeed is a relevant factor in Gods decision making process. As God, he can do anything he wants to make anything happen.