walking on the fence

How it would feel when one person has to make a decision to make but has mix feelings about both sides of the decisions. Whether or whether not to? A "good mixture" of such feelings would be when love and hate has blended together. One cannot help but identify with golum. Hates the ring and yet loves the ring. Similarly, one can also hate this life, and yet love it. Simpler it would be when identifying which is right and wrong would be easy peasy. Imagine how amusing it will be if there is no right or wrong to the decision made, but a clear change of lifestyle, trend of influence, social networks, or even modifications to belief system has to be made.
Have you tried walking on the fence before? I have. And I always fall down. Most of the time we think we can fall over to the side we prefer. Mathematically, the odds of that happening is 50%. but in real life, we only end up on the side we dread most. Most people would then proceed to blaming God as to why their life  being so miserable, failing to realise that life's decision making has to be a black or white kind.You either go over the fence or you never. For if you want life to be good, then you have to be on Gods side. fencing will end in God spitting you out.
The interesting about fence walking is the longer you walk on it, the higher it goes, and the thinner the fence gets. Also, it is note worthy that no matter how well someone can balance on that fence, sooner or later he falls for he will get tired. Everyone always think how capable they are at climbing such a fence. True. We can be very skillful at climbing such fences. The problem is no one is superman who doesn't get tired. And even superman can get tired.
If you have ever tried walking on a fence before, you will realise that it is very hard to keep your eyes on the fence for very long too. Once in a while, the left side looks nicer, the right side nicer. the footing without doubt is better, and not to mention, no need to worry about falling down from a fence. No one looks at the fence forever. Sooner, he will want to jump down from the fence.
So what happens after one falls down from the fence or willingly jump down from it? One gets bruised real badly. Some might even come out with broken bones. I know i broke a lot of things coming down from mine. The worse thing about the life's fence is no one completely comes of it. There is always parts of us who still endear the fence. Sooner or later, we are going to have to withdraw more parts of ourselves from the fence and make a decision. The floor is not kind either. It does not see if you have broken anything previously, or if you have never fell before. its blind anyway. Worse kind of pain is when one fell without realising that he hit the floor. Makes people start looking for something to learn from the pain, but in reality, there is nothing to learn from it. Just senseless pain waiting in the darkness with stings worse than a scorpion.

So, if we fall of the fence, what do we do next?
"why do we fall master Bruce? So we can pick ourselves up again." -Alfred
As long as your willing, Hope abundance waits in the form of a holed hand.